Was in church today. Saw Shelia, one of the cell group members, who invited me to the cell group lunch appointment. But turned her down, as I had to go home to fetch my parents out. Anyway, I made my own usual prayers after the service. Guess, there is really god up there? My prayers were answered.
Something happened, interestingly. While waiting for Kelvin to arrive at ECP, I sat in the BK resturant. Somehow, I have a feeling I might see her. My eyes were especially sharp today. Someone with a simliar running style to piggy attracted me, almost more than 50m away. I am curious, and continued to walk in that direction. As I walked, I had a heavy heart. What if it was her? How would she react when she sees me later. Eventually, she came running back, and only saw me when we were 1m apart. She was really focused, but her eyes caught my prescence. With a slight wave of her left hand, she was off again. I have not seen her for more than 3mths. She slimmed down alot. Very attractive to me. Actually, in whatever shape she is, she will still be attractive to me. But my heart also ached, when I think of her gastric pains if she did not eat. As she zoomed off, I can only watched her back again. Yes, she was running with him.
My prayers was answered.
I had a bad run today. I ran the usual 9km route, without much strength. Losing alot of focus, no energy. Came back in 55min 40sec. I just clocked 49min last week for the same distance. I guessed I was really distracted. We used to run ECP together, rain or shine, but now, she was running with another guy. Such irony.
I want to call her. I very much want to hear her sweet voice again. But something still holds me back. Is she really to accept my friendship again? Right now, it does not matter whether she is attached or not, cos all I want now is to have that friendship with her again. She had become part of my life, I just want to get back part of my life, am I asking for too much? But, relationships take both hands to clap, I have to respect her decision. But time is no factor for me. I still love her, our relationship started from friendship. It is fate that brought us together. And I will leave it to fate to decide if our destiny still continue, as one?
Good night, piggy.
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